Well, this is the week. I leave for Kazakhstan on Friday and return home on May 9. The anticipation of leaving the boys and Andrew is making me a bit of an emotional mess. It will be hard but we know that our family has been called to participate in this mission by sending me.
I'm no where near ready. In fact, I'm so far from ready that it's hard for me to believe that I will actually have things in order by Friday. Having everything converge at once (new job, moving home, and leaving for Kaz) was unplanned and has proven very challenging. I feel bad that things at home will likely not be as organized and prepared as I hoped.
So on the agenda this week:
- Continue unpacking and organizing the house.
- Work (this afternoon and Thursday).
- Bring birthday snack for Patrick - Tuesday.
- Make easy menu plan and get groceries for while I'm gone.
- Set out and label clothes for the boys for next week.
- Make a lion (I though zebra but I was wrong!) costume.
- Parent/Teacher Conferences on Friday morning.
- Put together letters, paper chain, special gifts, and snacks for the boys.
I'm going to take it one thing at a time. While it will be a busy week, it will also help keep me distracted from leaving the boys. :)
Going back to Kazakhstan is, in many ways, a dream come true for me. I look forward to building the playground for the sweet kiddos - I see how much mine love going to the park and know that this will bring so much joy! Most of all, I look forward to holding, cuddling, and playing with the children. It will be hard and I'm certain my heart will break a hundred times but showing them love and concern and interest is worth it. There will likely be 1 or 10 or 100 or more that I will carry in my heart forever.
This will be a life-changing trip and I know that there is little that can prepare me. I pray that my eyes and heart will be further opened. I pray that we can bring love, joy and hope. And I pray that we can make a difference in the lives of these precious children. Children that did not choose to be orphans.
If you think of it, please pray for the health, safety, and unity of the team. Pray for the work we will do. And please pray for our families at home - I know it's tough for all of us to leave our spouses and kids.