Tuesday, May 12, 2009


Lately, I've been contemplating this journey called life. Each path, each journey is unique. I think I've found myself thinking about some of the difficult times that shape us and that often effect our response to our own life and the lives of others. It's humbling and rather revealing - some good, some bad.

I think Mother's Day often triggers these thoughts for me. Being a fairly private person (I know, with a blog who would guess? :)), I sometimes feel misunderstood, take things too personally, feel judged, and generally distrust most people with the things closest to my heart. Some of my privacy has come about because of life experience, some from trying to communicate and not finding the listening, understanding heart that I had hoped for, some from having my words twisted, and some just because of my nature. :)

All that to say, deep thoughts and personal growth have led to some pain, some happiness, and some sadness in the past few weeks. It's good and necessary but hard. I pray for an open heart and the right response to His work in my life.


Mama10EE said...

Praying that God will shine a little light on the path He is walking with you.

gayle said...

Thank you for sharing--I empathize more than I can write. Let me encourage you with the very definition of the word--to inspire courage sufficient for any undertaking. May you know encouragement

Amy K said...

Don't give up trying to open your heart or trying to find people who are willing to listen and who really care. It's worth the pain in the end, I think. It's worth the possibility of being misunderstood.

I know where you're coming from. I've been brutally betrayed twice in my life and it really hurts. But I think it's so important to keep seeking and keep on being open. You expose yourself to potential pain but if you don't open yourself you also will never experience the joy of sharing life's journey with other people, and even forming unexpected friendships.

I'm still working on this as well.