Monday, April 21, 2008

Dear Calvin

Dear Sweet Boy,

Three years ago today you entered this world many, many miles away and I became a mom for the very first time. I wish I could have been there but know you were born in my heart. God knew what He was doing and He gave you a beautiful smile - you call it your "broken" or "owie" smile but to me it was perfect.

Your Daddy and I learned about you in June when you were a little over a year old and though we said we would think about whether we wanted you to be a part of our family, we already knew and already loved you and would have said an instant "yes" if they would have let us. It was just about a month later that we saw the very first picture of you, our precious, much longed for baby boy. You were beautiful and we couldn't wait to meet you! Finally the day came after 3 months - the wonderful day. Words cannot describe meeting you - you were shy, sweet, and instantly loving. You let me hold you and cuddle you and tears spilled down my cheeks. I had waited so long to be a mom but the waiting was worth it because it meant that I got to be your mom.

Your dad and I are so proud of you. You fought to stay alive in your tiny, weakened body and courageously learned to walk. You were our hero as you went through a tough surgery to have your clefts repaired and still maintained your sense of humor. You almost never complained even though I know it hurt. You have worked so hard at learning to talk and you are making awesome progress. You are determined, funny, and brave. You make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me smile, you make my day.

I love it when you put your arms around me and hug me and tell me you love me. I love to make you smile and laugh and I love the way your eyes dance. I love to feel your face pressed against mine. I love that you love me and trust me and know that I'm your Mommy. I love that you still like me to rock you and the way you lay back to look in my eyes. I love to see you learn and grow. I love the way you play with your brother. I love the way you express excitement and the funny faces you make. I LOVE YOU and I'm so glad God put you in our family!

Happy 3rd Birthday, Calvin. You didn't grow in my tummy, you grew in my heart.

Love forever,
Mommy

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

So...this made me cry. I can't imagine life without him.

-Aunt Margaret

Catherine said...

What a sweet letter! Happy Birthday Calvin!

stephanie said...

You made me cry too. But then I can nearly make myself cry just thinking about how the two came to be in this family. Someday, I'm certain Calvin will treasure this letter. God is so good!
Love you all. And a Happy Birthday to Calvin!!!

Monica said...

Precious Calvin, Happy Birthday!!

Heather L. said...

Happy Birthday to Calvin! It's hard to believe how much he's grown and what beautiful pictures!
We love you too, Calvin!

Ambrose Family said...

How beautiful! The love and the joy you find in being your boy's mommy is humbling! Thank you for sharing!

Alyssa said...

That almost made me cry too and I'm not even an Aunt with an excuse. It was so sweet.

Margaret said...

I caved: www.margaretjudd.blogspot.com

Mob said...

Oh Alaina, what a beautiful letter to your son. What a blessing!
Happy birthday little guy!

Barbie said...

What a beautiful letter to your son!! You are a blessed mommy. Happy Birthday Calvin!!

Mama10EE said...

Your letter made me cry! It was so heartfelt and sweet. I know that Calvin is so happy and knows that he is loved so much by his Mommy and Daddy. He's lucky to have you Alaina.

aunt liz said...

i also cried. God is good.