Thursday, January 21, 2010

Is It Me?

Do you ever just feel boring? I'm not big on talking on the phone or making small talk - I don't think I'm good at it and I often don't know what to say. I come by it honestly - several of my family members are the same. It is sometimes frustrating because it makes keeping up with people much harder. I write here and facebook as well and hope that people can stay up with our lives and I do try and make an effort to e-mail or occaionally call. It isn't that I don't like people, it isn't that I don't enjoy visiting with them...it's not that at all.

It's ironic that I became a dental hygienist since I have to make small talk all.the.time. :) And in some ways, it's easier for me to have a conversation with a stranger. I don't know, it's weird. I guess part of it is being a fairly private person - I maybe didn't use to be that way so much but I have definitely become more private as the years have passed.

Perhaps the carefree days of youth have been replaced by the reality that real life is difficult. I find myself busy with the mundane and always trying to keep up (not with the Jones' just with real life responsibilities :)). There are so many joys and so many heartaches - so many battles and so many victories.

I don't know. Maybe it's just me?

5 comments:

Katrina said...

You should try my life sometime! You'll find your life is thrilling in comparison! ;) It's really hard to talk to people when my life stays the same all.the.time...because people want to hear new exciting things, which I don't got..hah. (Oh, and I also HATE talking on the phone. Give me email or chat ANY DAY..i think it's because it gives me time to think before I say something so I don't come off sounding like a complete loon...well, most of the time...;) )

Monica said...

Trust me, many of us struggle with the same thing. Oftentimes I'll run into people who read my blog and I'm reminded once again at what a conversationalist I am not. Don't have much more to add to what I've already said, so I fear I appear to be boring. I love to listen though, if that counts for anything:)
By the way- I think you are very interesting with varied interests and opinions. I always learn something new from you.

kitzkazventure said...

When I left the career world, I realized how much of my self worth was based on what I did and whether or not that mattered to people.....being a stay at home mom seemed "boring" to me because nobody wanted to hear about it. I am not a talker or conversationlists either...I dislike party chatter greatly! :)

Now that I have kind of grooved into this mom thing, I could care less what people think...I am interested in what they do at work but I find nothing is more important than being a parent in these days....so much teaching to be done, loving, and snuggling...who has time for work.

I do love to talk when it is something I am passionate about like adoption but other than that we are homebodies and non conversationalist too. We do crave fellowship with family because we see them so rarely....skype has helped that some...

I think you are so very interesting...and I love reading your posts so be mundane all you want! ;)

Kim said...

You and I are the same! I HATE talking on the phone too! And I suck at small talk. I wish you lived closer! We could hang out and just stare at each other all day. LOL ;)

stephanie said...

I feel this way pretty much everyday. But, you already knew that. :)